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i've beEn sleeping for sooo long... frm 10pm last nite to 12pm this afternoon...and 3pm this afternoon to 6pm this evening...havent been doing anything constructive...i dunno y i juz got so tired... so tired of life... and i tink there's practically nth i look forward to in this holiday... it has never been lidat loh... and i've been thinking alot... having lots of mixed feelings...

i woodn't haf been so emotional if he wasn't somebody important to me.. anyway he claimed to hide his feelings becoz he was scared of rejection n getting hurt... but in the end..what did he do to somebody hu gave her heart to him... i cant help but to think he'll suffer some kind of retribution...i believe that if u dun wan to be treated lyk dat...dun treat others lyk dat too... well and i cant wait to see what heaven has for him... hope someday somehow he can understand the feeling of being treated lyk dat. i really dun understand why loh... when heaven gives you something... heaven will take something away from you.. you can never have 2 good things at one time...at least not for me.. wo bu hui yu dao zhe me hao de shi...

i keep having funny dreamz... and 80% of my dreams cum true...for example.. i dreamt of peach buns for offerings last nite...this morning my mum brought back 2 peach buns... -_-" who the heck gave me tt dream... and a few days ago i dreamt of this woman...running away wif her lover and in the end her husband chopped her lover up! =X what kind of dream is this??? how is my life related to such a dream? and there's alot more... sometimes superstitious things u cant dun believe one loh... i heard tt when a leaf falls frm a tree...and if u manage to catch it...u can make a wish... well i met tt during exams period... a leaf fell on my head...MuAhAha and i was thinking "shud i pray for love or results?" and OF COZ i chose results... in the end i did quite well in exams and ended up wif a horrible love life. when i was young...pple tell me not to point at the moon...otherwise my ears will be cut. true enuff...i pointed at the moon and the next day my ear lobe somehow kana a cut n bled... eEew. believe it or not.. i oways meet such things =X

aiya i haf been tinking too much..holidays 1st week is meant for me to really SLACK. actually i feel quite happy that i'm slowly walking out of the darkness he left me.. i noe i can do it.. coz i'm really tired of crying (though pple say crying can make ur eyes look better =D ) true...girls are oways the silly ones... guys can juz throw it behind them but girls will keep thinking abt it.. i'm letting it go oredi.. how can i not stand up after falling down right. hahaha... life is full of ups and downs.. its juz how we learn to accept... i'm growing up.. i'm learning..

hMm long entry hor..but i too sian liao..listen to me ma..haha toking abt fake pple.. everybody is fake la... sometimes i feel tt i treat different pple differently (someone has pointed tt out to me) i haf oways been fake loh..to be honest... i tell A tt i agree B sux...and i tell B tt i agree A sux... i oways tell pple what they lyk to hear... but do u not agree that sometimes you are lyk dat too?! when u are tokin to sumbody...would u tell the person all his faults or would u rather help this person grumble so tt he feels better?? haix nvm...haha everybody is fake to certain extent..but why care?? as long as everybody is happy together.. listening to each other's troubles.. itz better than looking for sumbody hu is not fake all your life and wasting it away... omg. i'm crapping again..lolx my fingers juz cant stop typing.. paiseh la those hu visit my blog hor...are all pple hu are willing to take my craps right..hehEhe =)

more about me...i'm an attention seeker... u wun be surprised to see me cracking sum lame jokes around...trying to make pple laff...haha i lyk to make pple laff.. and i oways lyk to do things so tt pple will look at me... haha i'm being honest here.. but i hate pple to laff at me la..hahAz.. so actually i was thinking maybe i'll end up being an actress or something.. loLx being my bF will be tough.. he's gonna gif me all his attention so i wun try to do anything funny to him =) hEheHE...

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